i've got no food. no brunch. hungry like a mad brown cow.

driving in awhile. i've been driving so much that it annoys me. AND I HAVE TO FREAKING TRAVEL TO UBI TODAY-ALONE.

baby's poster is nice NICE nice! NICEST! talented annoying brown cow. bet he will come in top man.

ok i am suffering from inferiority complex today.

I AM GOOD AT SOMETHING K!

ya. i'll try harder at convincing myself.

ANGIE OEI. WHERE ARE YOU? COME ENTERTAIN ME.

BORED.

May is gonna be the most happening month!

1)SAT test on 7th may.
2)Traffic Police on 17th May.
3)Sydney Sydney on 18th May!
4)Uni posting (unknown)

the only two which i am DAMN BAM excited about is my traffic police test and Sydney trip! woooo! one day apart lehhhhh! nice nice. who knows! maybe we'll get double joy!

i am first class driver k! don't pray pray!

oh, i am super thick-skinned too.

by the way, call me Li Juan. i am a cheena biang girl. (:

i have a friend who was so in love with a girl that he bought her a diamond ring. i think that was very very sweet of him. diamonds are a girl's best friend and i think it's simply more than that. a ring would sound like a pledge of love. definitely more so when he had their names engraved on it.

diamond ring. their names. what more do we have to say.

i bet he loved her alot. and i bet she loved him alot too. i bet she was a nice girl and i bet he would have wanted to marry her. that's nice.

i bet i bet i bet.

it's a bet i don't wanna win.

And it makes me wonder. how many times can we actually love.

to me, only once. and she is a lucky girl.

kinda sad that it didnt work out. like how it should have been. they would have been happy.

and my friend told me he forgot a particular anniversary.

let's laugh it off shall we?

what's a diamond ring compared to a date?

absolutely nothing.

lucky girl. poor girl.

i admire that lucky girl. so lucky.

Ah well.

ps: i am so not happy.

worked and it rained.

and i went camera searching with pei. and i saw my lovely lovely ipod. LOVELY PRICE TOO. i sound so meticulous on my blog lately. like some petty stingy pot. YES I AM STINGY. go away. hahaha.

and major bitching with a favorite girl. favorites k! lol.

angie! if you are reading this, BOO TO YOU! that's for leaving us for STATES.

for just a holiday of cos.

ok la. we miss you. you and your annoying sewing/knitting and spotlight.

hope you having some kind of life there. beats staying at home and sew.

AND IT'S SO BORING! just finished talking to my dad about driving. he's mad. he wants me to take my traffic police test this 6th may. LIKE HELLO! i'll FAIL. hahahah. as usual. i'm a reckless shit.

nights people. i shall go settle my flea market thingy thingy.

so i did pass my advanced theory. woo.

and so i have not received a damn bam uni posting.

ARGH.

And i really really HATE yellow dirty fellows.

it's wednesday tomorrow!

wednesdays mean only one thing: Ladies Night. Yipeeeee.

Been such a long long time. What to do. Permission always not granted by THE MAN. hahaha.

But to be fair to THE MAN, it's partly cos i've been trying to save some annoying cow money. we all know that clubbing is such a total depletion of monetary resources. AND it's an ultimate hazard to our health. THINK ABOUT IT! don't be annoying and tell me we cub to lose weight la! look at me! i am still chubby as ever! THINK ABOUT THE ALCOHOL AND THE CIG SMOKE! killing our time on earth k!

i am anti clubbing today.

and pro clubbing tomorrow. (:

ohs! and i still wanna save.

grass in Sydney not yummy.

NONO, grass is NEVER yummy. (not that i ever tried it though)

here's the good news for the day.

i have finally earned enough to get a damn SIA ticket to Sydney. Let me repeat: it's a DAMN SIA ticket and it costs a thousand odd. so fuggin expensive.

And here's the bad news for the day.

i MIGHT have to eat grass in Sydney. Let's all keep our fingers crossed.

And then more news.

i haven't received my advanced results which i have the strongest suspicion that i might just jolly well fail. so tricky cannnnnnnnn. we'll know tomorrow. woooo.
And no Uni just wanna contact me for any fuggin interviews or even anything at all! like what? it can't be that bad, can it? hmmmmmm. I DON'T NEED AN ANSWER FOR THAT.

tired. driving again tomorrow. fun fun and more fun! i'll wear my shades and look DAMN cool under the morning sun. hee! i think my instructor will give me the wth look since i ALWAYS wear tshirt and shorts to his lessons, with absolutely no intentions to look any better other than my fresh-out-of-bed look. hey, at least i bother to brush my teeth before i get out of the house! (:

angie's being retarded by the way.

oh, and where's baby huh?

WHERE ARE YOU JASON CHUA?

ignore me. i am feeling a little urm bored.

and there was no phone call.

finally, a tad better.

Heard his voice just now. we kinda had a chat and he did sound tired. guess it must be my works again. Forever tiring him out with my nonsense. i call them nonsense cos it's naturally what everyone else would call it. brillant. NONSENSE.

and i said i was feeling a tad better?

of cos i am.

yesterday has been hell. too much mindgames on my side. too many "is he gonna...what if...does he...". simply too many mindless questions. and yes, i made him very very angry yesterday. so much that we hang the phone on each other, and went about feeling very very upset. at least i was.

everyone has problems and i am just part of everyone.

however my way of handling problems is less tactful than others. i bottle up feelings until the point of insanity or almost.

i know i behave like a mad kid sometimes. pardon the usage of word kid though i just turned 19 a few days ago. i am deem a mad kid because you don't know my side of the story. May you never have to know. it's not morbid or whatsoever, just unpleasant. and i don't wish to discuss about unpleasant stuffs. makes me more upset than ever.

and i thought i almost lost you.

everyone needs a pillar to lean on- even the strongest person.

and you're my pillar.

cooped in my room the whole day. somehow i feel that i'll be doing this for a very long time.

emo music blastin. tears falling. enough said.

we are all tired i guess. maybe more for you. don't worry. you don't have to be tired no more. what you want, you'll get it.

you promised about giving me the world. now you complain about having to feel the need to give me the world. whatever it is, may you know what you want.

and if you miss me, i guess i'm never too far.

not as far as you are from me.

you're drifting- like a snapped kite. or maybe i'm drifting.

doesn't matter anymore. does it.

through the tear(s) in my eye,
i see the world in another light.
so blurry. so grey.
as if the world's suddenly a monochrome.
just black and white.

where have all the colors gone?
the tinge of colors blue, green, red, yellow.
happy colors, a happy world.
probably a happy me.

my heart's probably the color of black.

from far away, i saw-
the kite with the color red.
the only sign of life-
a happy life.
yet, the moment of joy died almost instaneously
when the string snapped

the only color.
the only hope of happiness,
was taken away from me.
with the wind, the kite drifts further and further
maybe to somewhere better.

maybe to somewhere better.
somewhere with colors everywhere.
expect for the colors of black and white.

Butters says:
"I love you"

And this makes everything

worthwhile.

hello lovelies!

it's lovely tuesday with lovely weather. no rain. lovely for driving.

lovely.

it's lovely tuesday and my lovely birthday tomorrow! wohooo!

lovely lovely.

and i have a lovely birthday wish. -wink-

i am so lovely. (:

i did not sleep at all.

been awake since last night. so how many hours is that?

i don't know. i can't think very well i think.

i am tired. yet i can't sleep.

my eyes hurt. no i did not cry.

i really did not cry.

i feel so sad.

and pardon for the vocabulary.

i can't think.

I Miss.
being your passenger, complaining about your supposed bad driving.
mid-night drives to supper areas where we frequent almost everyday.
chicken pie and haagen daz from the mobil near your place.
nasi lemak from my place.
you cooking for me. yummy chicken and pastas.
watching you cook.
the cd that is overplayed in your car.
us crooning to boyband 'Blue'.
running after bus 27 which ALWAYS require us to chase after it.
holding your hand and asking you to "khuai khuai" whilst we cross the road.
my 1 large step against your 2 steps.
mid-night movies with you.
watching vcds and falling asleep first leaving you to watch alone.
south park, guess show, jacky wu.
bouncing on your bed.
sleeping next to you.
watching you sleep.
waking up and finding you here.
three person majong and laughing into the night.
pong, chow, eat or whatever you call them.
you serenading me with guitar and lovely tunes.
you sitting by the balcony looking romantic.
the view from your house.
your hugs and kisses.

i miss being next to you. so close.

yet now. we are so far apart.

and all i can say is "i miss".

but there are simply too many of them.

dear baby, wait for me like how i wait for you. i'll be there SOON.

ps: stop eating weird food like nutella without bread.

Tim Mcgraw It's Your Love

Dancin' in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
And holdin' it tight

Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
And askin' you to do
What you've been doin' all over again

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

It's your love
It just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell
I'm under
It's your love

Better than I was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin' your hand

And who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever
I'm happy and free

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you asked me why I changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

It's your love
It just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
It's your love

Oh, babyOh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

It's your love
It just does somethin' to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
It's your love
It's your love
It's your love

MY favorite song.

dodging glances on the train says:
when is your boyfriend coming back?
eat grass. [41] says:
i am going over late may and we'll come back together
eat grass. [41] says:
in july
dodging glances on the train says:
go over to visit him?
eat grass. [41] says:
yeaps
dodging glances on the train says:
you're a good girlfriend
eat grass. [41] says:
i am?!
eat grass. [41] says:
only the guys say that. my gfs DO NOT say that to me.
dodging glances on the train says:
because who the hell will travel miles to visit her boyfriend
eat grass. [41] says:
why not!
dodging glances on the train says:
i think if i live in jb, my gf wouldn't even come see me
eat grass. [41] says:
lol
eat grass. [41] says:
you think.
dodging glances on the train says:
really it's true
dodging glances on the train says:
somemore
dodging glances on the train says:
you're going there alone right
eat grass. [41] says:
erm ya
dodging glances on the train says:
wah this kind of girl where to find ah
eat grass. [41] says:
not even la.
dodging glances on the train says:
yeah thats why it's odd
eat grass. [41] says:
what's so odd
dodging glances on the train says:
you this kind of girl
dodging glances on the train says:
are your parents paying for your fares?
eat grass. [41] says:
nopes
eat grass. [41] says:
i dont intend to use their money
eat grass. [41] says:
it's my personal trip and it's kinda mean to ask them to pay for it. my mum offered cos she saw me slogging my ass off at work but neh. i wanna feel independenet for once.
dodging glances on the train says:
see what i mean
dodging glances on the train says:
you're odd
dodging glances on the train says:
in a good way

this so proves my point to *you. (:

forty one more days to Aust!
five more days to yours truly's birthday!

i think i am gonna start working out. i feel so lazy and i wanna have ABS. everyone say WOAH. lol. if only la. working at Cali has been quite an eye-opener. i see burly looking guys everyday. though not exactly hunky-dory. JUST FULL OF MUSCLES till it's scary. don't worry baby, i REALLY don't fancy muscles. ohs! and quite a no. of celebs frequent the club too. like patricia mok. lol. she's real skinny la.

anyway, anyone's up for supper?!

fuggin bored. such a total waste of my youth.

it's raining. and i hate the rain when i am not snuggled in bed with a someone.

i hate the rain when i have work. it means bad sales! argh. what a way to start work. been raining and raining and raining. ok, i shall stop complaining.

i am worried about my uni application. i seriously hope i can get somewhere. sigh.

my computer is infected with spywares. so dumb. SPYWARES.

how do i deal with it ah? hmmm.

www.kia.co.uk/picantohome.asp?bhcp=1

i swear i can just settle for a cheap and small car like this. it's nice!

dinner at bugis with the 2 Ps, pei and pris. loads of laughter la. as usual. oh! and they laughed at my "xiao ming" joke! it's freaking funny i swear.

pay me and i'll consider telling you the joke! it's classic!

there's a lizard in the living room. i can hear it. I HATE LIZARDS.

i miss my boo bei but at least i managed to talk to him. he's driving me hopping mad with his "i-don't-want-to-sleep" attitude. what a spoilt lil brat! MY BRAT! and to think he's already 2* (age not to be disclosed just in case). he's gonna suffer when i get to Aust.

"bed by ten!"
"NO BUTS!"
"done ya assignments?! NO?! no games for a week!"

i sound like a mum. a very mum-ish gf?! maybe! he's my spoilt lil one anyway. (:

anyway, kudos everyone. i am in a pretty good mood.

i am feeling cold.

and extremely bored.

Butters just wants to sleep and sleep. how annoying.

so annoyed can. HMPF.

hello.

i shall blog.

theme for today is: "eat grass" it simply means a substitute for food such as rice, noodles.

that shall be the theme for the whole of april and may.

cheers everyone.

and happy grass-eating. (: