"i am loooking at youuuuuuuuuuuu."

i think people have the misconception that i am a very unhappy girl (based on my posts) but i really am not. i am like...................so in love! okok, maybe too in love till i get upset/unhappy blah over some lil things but really, everything's fine and dainty.

people thinks the posts are sad. and they think i am sad. but no! when i am sad, i would be too sad to even blog. i would probably be curled up in some corner of the bed la!

and anyway! this is such a happy blogg! dont you think my bear's really cute! i bet when you look at his pictures, it made you smile!

(: (: (: (:

OH! AND HAPPY HAPPY HALLOWEEENNNN!

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AND I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY!

Trimethylgly©ine says:

do u know the static electricity given out by the screen kills cell..

Trimethylgly©ine says:

and the poor bear...no more baby bear for him

such a weird friend. haha. -_-

when i can no longer hide my tears.

on the way home, had 'comfortable' by John Mayer on my repeat mode. the feeling's so.... icky. if there is even such a word. the bus was packed, noisy yet i was in my own world with John Mayer. and i felt better for a moment for i thought at least Mr John understands. at least i hope he does or i think he did.

i am becoming way too emotional lately. not that i was never one but then it just got worse. like how i can no longer control those tears. like how singing to myself/twiddling with my fingers/staring at a particular area (techniques i use to control my tears) no longer helped. for the last time, i wish i couldn't feel.

it still matters.

after some faked smile. it still does.

i wish i was attractive. at least to you.
but i know, you would never have looked my way.

i am way plain.
she's beautiful. i think they are.















here's to me: the most plain felicia.

"CAN you spot me?"

"i was bored and i decided to climb OVER a notebook. (:"

torture ended at 346pm.

what a relief.

it's now 626pm.

goodnight. (:

i miss the boy who sleeps with a cute lil bear,
the one who makes milo without milk,
the one who taught/made me wash the dishes,
the one who complains that i can't wash the dishes well,
the one who has many many games set and still accumulating,
the one who visits the malls and find games for his game sets,
the one who loves design,
the one who loves music,
the one who makes the best prawn pasta,
the one who acts like 17 yet he's 2*,
the one who thinks star wars IS nice,
the one who rides, skates, blades (or used to),
the one who sleeps as much as me,
the one who pigs with me,
the one who teaches me guitar,
the one who claims that i can only play 'better man,
the one who taught me so much,
the one who made me laugh/cry so much.

i love you J.C boy.

i have a tummyache.

Without you, there’ll be no one to play peek-a-boo with.
Thank you my Sydney Love,
For being there for me.
Without you, I’m incomplete.

HAPPY 15th J.C!

Love, Fe.

i am gonna go watch transporter 2 and have a nice dinner! so happy and excited to meet baby baby baby baby!!!! woooo!

wooooooooooooooooooo!

before i go!

can't you tell i am very excited?!?!?!?!!?!?!??!

i really ammmm!!! i shall go enjoy myself and give my baby a big hug before i slogggg and rush dateliness!!! woooooo!!!! he's on his way!!! -JUMPS AROUND-

bye!!!

did you change or did i.

you can't understand my disappointment when i called to check whether you were ok. you can't possibly sleep that much unless you are ill. i was worried and imagine my hestitation to call you for the fear of waking you up. but i did anyway.

just because i was concerned.

and then i realised that you were fine and dainty and somewhere else instead of bed.

i am disappointed cos you didn't bother telling me. maybe you don't have to. but i thought every bf inform their gfs anyway. it's just an sms. can't do that? so busy?

you don't even think whether your gf's worried.

talk about busy.

she was worried.

just an sms.

and then i received an sms. but it wasn't from you.

i wasn't expecting anyway.

maybe you can call me petty. but what a fren said is true. having a partner is so that you have someone to account for. if you don't bother making the effort, why have a gf in the first place.

i am gonna switch off my phone. then i wouldn't wait.

goodnight everyone.

love, emo.

clubbing this friday.

angie if u read this, respond k. i msg u online and u refuse to reply. hmppff.

just got home and ate curry instant noodle. gonna head out to pass someone something.

this is such a boring post.

bye.

oh anyway! EVERYONE should drop by Ripples Cafe at Amoy Street. real good food leh! me fussy eater says it's good means it's GOOD. woooo!

go eat k!

and try the baked rice. wah lau.

better than swensens.

ok bye. haha.

so happy can! my south asian paper got postponed to 7th nov. wooo wooo woooooo! but i still have alot of assignments. ALOT.

haiyo. i am so bored. it's a wednesday night and everyone's out with their beloved bfs. SOB. not fair. haiyerrr.

this is so pretty hor!! prettiest leh!

gamescube. playstation. psp. what's next? they are darling 1,2,3. i am 234682804830285th place i think. SO SAD.

altogether now! everyone should get psp cos it's so sleek and pretty. go buy k! yawns.

it's supper time @ 12.30am and i am munching on those lil biscuits we used to eat when we were young. nostalgia can. and they taste very very nice for something that's worth ONLY 2 freaking moolahs. cheapest and nicest la.

you mean you don't know what biscuit i am talking about ar. i show you the pic and you'll go ORHHHHHHHHH. THAT ONE AH. confirm.
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everyone goes:" ORHHHHH THIS ONE AH! CHEYYYYYYYY!"
ps: this is fishy biscuit.

see i told you. you'll know what i mean one. childhood days. don't you just miss it?

hai.

Research ah research ah freaking research.

i wanted to text so much, yet i didn't.

maybe only once.

though i wanted to so badly.

John Mayer- Comfortable

I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, isle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us, if we could leave.

Can't remember, what went wrong last September
though i'm sure you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say 'shes gonna be good for you
'they throw me, high fives

She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say

She thinks I can't see the smile that shes faking
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.
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so true. so sad.

what we saw during lunch today. i totally detest THAT. chamelon/lizard/whatever. ewww.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. there's so much to do. endless assignments lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i wanna whine. so much to juggle.

maybe i should be a juggler.

HAHAHHAHAHA. i thought that was pretty funny!

and i got back my SEA report. totally sucks. SOB.

don't wanna study le. HMPHHHH!

"you think that's all i can do?! i can do a freaking head-stand. BEAT THAT!"

"did i tell you how much i love you?" (:

i have to show you all THIS! cute or what!

go freaking watch this!

it's hurting.

when all the passion's gone. when the flowers have all wilted. when dark clouds appear.

it's hurting.

when i have to pretend there's nothing, when i am deep down so upset.

if you love parmesan cheese and fish, you'll love this. it says: "parmesan fish & chips" at Changing Appetite for only 12.90+++ i totally dig the food there la. the ribs, the steak, and the fishes. Get ya bum there. pretty nice ambience with HUGE red sofas and cushions!
if you do not like parmesan, settle for CA's original "fish & chips" @ only 9.90+++.
cheap or what!

anyway, if you do not like red cushion seats, settle for Manhattan Fishmarket at plaza singapura. friggin good food la.

I LOVE TO EAT EAT EAT. check out my double chin. woooo!

I HAVE THIS AND YOU DON'T!
a folder of the nicest songs to keep me company through the night. so sweet.
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anyway i wanna complain about the amount of work i have for this black october.

1. south asian presentation 13 oct
2. food and security presentation 21 oct
3. south asian essay paper 24 oct
4. sea research paper 26 oct
5. philo paper 2 28 oct
6. food and security test 28 oct.

wah lau. might as well kill me now. sob.

my pathetic view from the last row of the lecture hall. eyer.

the sms which made me want to tear and weep in the midst of my food and security lecture. it's so sweet and so touching that i wanna sigh for the rest of the day.

you promised.

but it's not the promise itself that matters, but rather the fact that you thought of me and made that promise. even when it means that you have to put yourself at the risk of breaking it.

i'm so happy yet sad at the same time.

can i say that i love you?

CAN I?
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lectures so bad cos i was late and i am sitting behind behind behind. so far and blocked that i can't see a single shit except for many heads. it's so annoying.

argh.

WHAT THE HELL SIA.

aiyo. so cute can.

"hello all!

my name is bear bear! i am the cute ball of fur that you see almost all the time in fefe's pictures. i love her and she loves me too. teehee.

i am camera-shy."

love, bear bear!

Thank you baby!

love, baby. (:

don't talk to me for i have a bad attitude.