such a terrible night and i can't sleep. i have no idea how to express the way i feel at this moment. i have not felt this lost and helpless for a long long time. i don't know why but i thought of my baby alot today. the whole day whilst i was out, he was constantly on my mind. it's scary how much i wish for him to be by my side. i don't know why (again) but i am just very afraid to lose him today. of cos, Jason does not know about all these cos i do not tell him. Ahhh. the whole night i was feeling so down. cos i really miss him alot. more than ever. worst night ever. maybe cos i was in a foul mood that things turned a lil sour. felt really really horrible. =~( whatever la. i shall go hibernate and maybe i'll forget stuff. i swear my eyes are like puffy. whatever.

nights world.

And it's not your fault that you can't be here

to wipe my tears.