i realised, all she ever wanted was to be happy. to have someone shower her with all the love he can ever afford to give, and to bask forever in that moment. i think sometimes she fears that it would end, and that's why we see the tears in her eyes. it wasn't because she was sad. she was only afraid. afraid that the joy that she was feeling at that moment would one day be gone.

she told me that she was confused. confused about what she was feeling. she said that she was hurt. she didn't mean to make him choose. he thinks that she wasn't being understanding enough. she thinks that he does not understand her enough. she told me when he closed the door behind her, she wasn't sure whether she's going to return.

i look at her, and i wonder if she is happy.